Old Beginnings

This sort of feels familiar. I'm starting over in a whole new environment again. Graduating college is a lot like graduating high school. And yet, totally different. I take that back–it's nothing like graduating high school.

I remember the bubble of excitement I felt after high school graduation. Gone were the people who had made my life miserable. I no longer had to wish I was more like them and yet hate them at the same time. I was going to a place where no one ever knew me, somewhere I could start over and find my niche. I was going to find a place to fit into this world, something I had struggled with for years.

But, graduation from college is not what I quite expected. Not that I knew what to expect. I was picturing myself having my own life right away. I was going to move in with a friend, find a job and become a famous journalist, writer, or photojournalist. Or all three. Not so fast, tiger. How about an unpaid internship and a retail job where they never give you any hours first? It's been a slow process.

Everyone always says that you have to start at the bottom and work your way up to your dream job. They neglect to inform you what it feels like to be on the bottom. It sucks, plain and simple. Whether you're working a retail-type job, serving the masses or working at the place you've always wanted (which really means just getting coffee for everyone), you may be on your way, but the road is bumpy. It is full of potholes, road-kill, cracks, and curves. You will screw up, you will see some ugly parts of life, you will get lost. It will be really hard.
No matter what I will be doing in the next few months along this crazy road, I need some part of my life to be inspiring, to give me hope that something is going to change. That I'm going to pick up speed maybe, figure out which direction I should be going in, to continue the metaphor. I just know I can't go on not being able to write the stories I care about, the ones that I think the world needs to hear.
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So, in an attempt to keep practicing my writing and find those stories I care so much about, this will become my writing corner. I hope it serves me well.